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My love story with ~~Edmund~~ started on 1010101212. No one can ruin this relationship of ours, ever. Muack!

I can't keep my hands off the cookie jar. Or the chocolate bars. Warning, I have an absolutely sweet tooth and I like candy floss. I really adore babies and toddlers and I often go gaga over them, teehee. This is my blog; my rules, my world. No ripping, spamming, or any type of childish acts. I ban those people. If you can't follow them, simply just click that red 'x' mark above! ;) Almost forgot, do visit our graphic site: Special Pour Vous

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Nov 14, 2010 10:33 PM

If only I could tell you.

I would hold you in my arms
I would take the pain away
Thank you for all you've done
Forgive all your mistakes

There's nothing I won't do
To hear your voice again
Sometimes I wanna call you
But I know you won't be there

Oh I'm sorry for blaming you
For everything I just couldn't do
And I've hurt myself by hurting you

Some days I feel broke inside but I won't admit
Sometimes I just wanna hide 'cause it's you I miss
And it's so hard to say goodbye
When it comes to this

Would you tell me I was wrong?
Would you help me understand?
Are you looking down upon me?
Are you proud of who I am?

There's nothing I wouldn't do
To have just one more chance
To look into your eyes
And see you looking back

I'm sorry for blaming you
For everything I just couldn't do
And I've hurt myself

If I had just one more day
I would tell you how much I've missed you
Since you've been away
It's dangerous
It's so out of line
To try and turn back time

I'm sorry for blaming you
For everything I just couldn't do
And I've hurt myself by hurting you

Those in bold italic is what I'm trying to say. I just don't know how to say it until I found this song.
Hurt - Christina Aguilera }

There's nothing I won't do

To hear your voice again - this means that when i'm on the phone with you and we just ended the call, i can't wait to hear your voice again.

Oh I'm sorry for blaming you

For everything I just couldn't do

And I've hurt myself by hurting you - i'm sorry for blaming you for things i'm not able to do on my own. it just seems that i keep pushing the blame to you. and that i've hurt myself for making you feel hurt.

Some days I feel broke inside but I won't admit

Sometimes I just wanna hide 'cause it's you I miss - sometimes you may ask me whether i'm okay right? well, this is my answer to you.

Would you tell me I was wrong?

Would you help me understand? - if i've done something wrong and i've admitted, please don't insist on saying that it's okay. it may be okay for you to say it to me, but your heart is not okay. and when i ask you not to insist on saying it's okay, it's because i want you to let me be in your shoes. i don't want to always be forgiven so easily.

There's nothing I wouldn't do

To have just one more chance - i would do everything to have another chance to show you that i can change.

I would tell you how much I've missed you

Since you've been away - everytime you're not with me, the first sentence says it all.

It's so out of line

To try and turn back time - if i could i would try and turn back time. but it's too dangerous with all the risks. if only i could.

i hope you understand what i'm trying to say to you. i know i don't have the guts to tell you directly, even through a message but blog's my other best friend. it listens to my whine and doesn't say anything.

"I don't want to cry again."

you told me to smile and always be happy for you right? i'll try, for you.

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6:48 AM

Starting over taking one, two babysteps.

Hello. Yes, I'm back from not updating for three days. HAHAHA. But I'm not going to be updating every single day. As if I got all th time in th world. Well, no I don't.
I will only update once in a while, meaning that only when I have something to say then yeah, I will tell you guys all about it.

Today I'm gonna start by saying a BIGBIGBIGGG:

SORRY.

And I hope you'll forgive me with tiny cute cherries on top.

Well, I'm starting it off like this cos I have this feeling; a feeling. A feeling that's very unexplainable. A feeling no one will understand except for th people who feels th same way as I do. A feeling that a person will feel at least once in their life span. A feeling that...- you get th idea. I'm saying sorry to a very special person in my life; who've changed my life, who've made me think positively, who've loved me and still does, for who I am and who've taught me everything I almost don't know. Yes, it's to my boyfie, EDMUND. ♥

I've done something wrong, terribly wrong. And I'm feeling really guilty AND apologetic.
Okay, this is to my boyfie:

Bie, I hope you will read this and forgive me. And I hope this will not change anything between us. You may think what I'm doing now is stupid and you may think that I don't have to guts to tell you face to face or whatsoever. But maybe it's because I'm scared; scared of losing you, scared of whatever might happen after this. AND YES, I may be sensitive and that results to giving you attitude but that does not mean that I am not hurt nor does it mean that I am not feeling guilty. It also doesn't mean that I don't love you no longer.
I STILL DO, ♥
It has been a month and four days. One month and four days may not be long but we can always can that fact. During this one month and four precious days, I have learnt alot from you. Maybe even learn what is th real definition of what love really means? Maybe and I thank you for it. We've had our ups and downs. Gone through little arguments. Went through thick and thin together and this is an unforgettable experience, with you. Sharing every moment with you has been my joy ever since 10/10/10. You made me smile, laugh, cry but everything's worth it.
I may have hurt you, anger you and/or more and I'm really sorry for that too. I don't mean th words I say when I'm in a bad mood. I really don't; they were just words of anger. And usually, words of anger are not really true. Do you think I would like to say those things to you? I don't. After I said them to you yesterday night, I cried. Do you know how much it hurts? You may not know. But I don't mind how much this hurts cos this is part and parcel of life. I feel blessed to have you. Somehow, i woke up from this horrible dream of mine and saw reality for myself. And that's why I'm dedicating today's post to you. :)
I'm sorry kay, bie? I really am.

FORGIVE ME.

And another thing I want to tell you. You wanted to know what I told my sister while you were asleep and after you left right? Okay. I told her that I pitied you because of some things. One of them is when you're sending me back home. I know you're tired and you also know this yourself how tired you are, but you still want to send me home. In th end, you reach home late and th cause is me. And when you're on th bus asleep, you tend to move your fingers & that somehow means to me as a sign of stress; not because you're cold cos of th rain outside. I asked my sister to look at your face. I did too. It showed an innocent boy, who's just tired and stressed. Like you've had enough of all these nonsense. That's what WE saw.
You also work hard for you own expenses but you also spend them on me, that's another reason why I feel guilty. You work so hard and like you told me, it's like tonning for two nights. And I still give you attitude. That's also another reason why I felt guilty. You know now?
And you know I told you something about "C" changing after th June holidays right? It was only ONE MONTH. I don't want this TWO MONTHS holiday to affect us. That's what I'm worrying about.
And like this post title said, "Starting over taking one, two babysteps". I will change for th benefit of my own and yours. So please forgive me? :(

I LOVE YOU, ♥

"The best proof of love is trust."