Nov 17, 2010 7:06 AM
Life, you suck.
fuck this shit, i give up.
i'm totally speechless. i really am. what am i. who am i. bleah, pure shitzx.
i'm fine if you don't accept me the way i am, i didn't say anything. this is a common saying, "no one is perfect." want someone perfect, go get ken or barbie.
before i update my blog, i always feel like crying. when i'm typing the post, i stop. but then again, i read and recall; that makes it worse. seriously, stop it. when everything's okay, something happens again. i tell you what's right from wrong sometimes, does it help? i wish i could tell you what i think. but words can't even describe how i feel. that's sad. and my statuses are already hints for you. forget it, forget everything.
i won't force you any longer. i wasn't even. i'm just speaking the truth. but if the truth hurts, are lies any better? i don't get what you say sometimes, you also won't get me. but what i think is always the same; i don't deserve you. you also don't deserve me. you deserve someone much better than me. less bitcher. someone who'll give in to you so you guys won't fight or argue over small little things. i'm not giving you attitude. it's the side of me when i'm serious.
yes, i may tend to joke around sometimes. but do you think this time it's all a joke? seriously, i can't describe how i feel. i may not understand you, but i'm trying. it's hard k. not easy. even when i give a smile. it's hard. i don't know why, i always help people. in the end, i'm left alone with troubles to face on my own. so what if i like to bottle up my feelings? you can't stop me either. i don't know. i seriously have nothing to say!
they say pictures describe a thousand words. true? i just hope i can push all the troubles away like how i do to avoid people. it's not polite but live with that. i'm me. if time flys fast, why can't they take trouble along with them? "time will heal all wounds." LIES MUCH?
and i'll end here. i'm blanked out.
if i die young, bury me in a bed of roses.